Letting off some steam

The most dumbest, annoying, ironic fact about how I got HIV is that I got it after straightening up my ways. Yes, I may not have still used protection but at least I chose partners. Not like back then, before I had a boyfriend, when I just let every guy in, when I was more prone to contracting it. When I stopped abusing drugs and when I finally went back to school and started being responsible, that's when I get HIV. Great.

That so called mistake

We all move towards death on our own volition, our own time and own routes; just like we have our own pains, losses and weaknesses. There is no mistake because that only leads to judgement and judgement to anger and resentment. There is simply action and reaction.

The ones that came before us have already wasted so much on selfish pride, anger and prejudice caused by cowardice. I'm going to start the change I want in myself. No longer will I waste energy in this universe spent on judging and being angry about things I cannot change.